Full-Blown Suffering: My Struggle With the Enigmatic Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It began on a overcast weekday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a educator, attempting to manage a new class, when a sudden pain erupted behind my one eye. Then came rapid jolts, similar to lightning bolts. As the school day came and went, the discomfort subsided and then returned with increased intensity. Four times that day I left a colleague with worksheets and hurried to the school bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I tried ibuprofen, but the pain remained unbearable.

The headaches appeared frequently that autumn, and once more in the spring, soon establishing an yearly cycle. The autumn months were the worst, then February and March. I could predict the pattern: a warning sensation in the shower, early pangs on the commute, full-on pain in class by mid-morning. In 2019, a doctor finally referred me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches often begin with intense pain around one eye that persists for three hours.

About one in 1,000 individuals suffer by the disorder, and men are more frequently diagnosed. Cluster headaches typically begin with sudden, severe pain focused on one eye that reaches its peak within a short time and continues for up to three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, every day or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or face perspiration. There exists the episodic form, which occurs in periodic bouts; some patients have continuous attacks, characterized by the absence of long pain-free periods.

What unites patients is the intensity. One study rated the pain at 9.7 10, more severe than bone fractures or pancreatitis. Another discovered a significant percentage of cluster patients experienced thoughts of self-harm amid attacks; the number dropped to 4% when they were pain-free.

One patient, in her seventies, a chronic sufferer from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her episodes started when she was two. “I would throw myself on the floor and bang my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition worsened through childhood. Alcohol in her adolescence, similar to many causes, made things more intense. After drinking alcohol at her graduation party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the bus home.

Her relatives often mistook her episodes as intoxicated behavior. Understanding finally came from her parent and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after relocating, but often concealed her condition. She was fired from one job, partly due to time off during attacks. Her definitive identification came in 2002 at a specialist hospital.

Nevertheless, the failure to organize daily activities around unpredictable pain took its toll. She particularly hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her family during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the simple liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been documented across history. “The first description of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write authors in a publication on the subject. They attributed the disease to an evil entity who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Historical healing records suggest bizarre remedies for what some experts would classify as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, severe headache was recognised as a separate disorder, with therapies including bloodletting to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the first comprehensive description of a cluster headache. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very severe headache occurring and disappearing daily at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only formally recognised by international headache societies in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a key blood vessel that supplies blood to the brain. Prominent specialists in diagnosing the condition note this.

In 1998, researchers released the results of a research project for which they had induced attacks in patients and observed the episodes in a imaging machine. The data, featured in a major journal, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they recovered.

In spite of such advances, identification remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's symptoms began in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he had four surgeries before eventually being diagnosed in recently, after a doctor researched his symptoms.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosis and treatment occur because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He works by ruling out other common headache disorders, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A detailed patient history is crucial: on which side do signs appear? For how much time? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Specific characteristics such as redness, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help verify the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be sent to specialist centers. But a lot of first go to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable treatments.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has suffered from cluster headaches for most of her life, although she has been free from an episode since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth extracted because dental professionals misinterpreted her symptoms. She thinks dentists still need much more awareness. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who responded. I remember calling a helpline during an bout in 2021; a reassuring volunteer talked them through oxygen treatment and drugs until the episode eased.

National guidance on treatment advise that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine medication administered by nasal spray. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic choices include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly helps manage the bouts of some individuals.

But leading specialists believe the official guidelines need revising to reflect a clearer treatment process and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, timing is everything: “The duration of the cycle determines the approach.” Brief cycles with infrequent episodes are managed with acute treatment only. Longer or more severe bouts require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with steroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an procedure into the area of the skull where the pain is that reduces nerve signals.

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